Venomous Nightmares

Yeah, today I was awoken after only 3 hours by bad dreams.

Usually gore in my dreams doesn't bother me, so I don't know why it scared me so much. Basically, this is my first dream. I was watching a man at the zoo, in some sort of animal's habitat. The zoo keepers kept trying to get him out... I think he was drunk. Anyways, he's resisting, running away... And then, as the audience watched in horror, the animal to whom the enclosure belonged emerged from its sandy home. It was apparently a colossal scorpion. It was about the size of an Irish Wolfhound, and its stinger was nearly a foot long. The man turned to see this monster approaching, and turned to run, only to discover another colossal scorpion emerging. He was surrounded, and stumbling in the dirt, tried to fight them off. Though finally, the first scorpion plunged its stinger into his torso, which went right through his doughy body. As the other scorpion attempted to claw at the man's flailing corpse, the first scorpion began to wave the man around on his stinger... He was alive, screaming, terrified, and no one could help, because he was already practically dead.

Then, the second dream, I went into my mother's room for some reason, to find it was covered in spider webs. I took refuge on top of a chair in the middle of the room. Though, as I stood there, I realized it wasn't safe either, and two brown recluse were advancing toward me. I knew instantly they were brown recluse, and that they were venomous. Though rarely aggressive as a species, these two were advancing quickly toward me, flexing their mandibles. Oddly enough, right next to one of them was a pamphlet about brown recluse spiders... Anyway, just before they got me, I woke up and freaked the fuck out.

First Post, Unoriginal Title

So, I just had two movements in the last hour. The first one was that smooth kind where you hardly need to wipe, and it was pretty big. I felt empty, like, OH I COULDN'T POSSIBLY MAKE ANOTHER. Then about 10 minutes later, I had the overwhelming dhiarini. So I ran back to the bathroom and let the hot acid foam out my ass. That time, I really needed to wipe.

That was my life last night, after my boyfriend left. Kinda sucked, but the fact that he was just here felt so good. Every time we have a stretch of days without seeing each other is hard. But when it's close to an entire month without seeing him, it's impossible. I start to forget how strongly I feel. But then the first day he comes back, it all comes rushing back to me.

In my stupidity, I had posted in a drink/fight/smoke/fuck thread, saying I only intended to smoke. I don't know why I did... Sheer boredom, lack of friends in the area, wanting to smoke. But he saw my posts, just my luck. I'm glad he did though. He mentioned seeing that thread rather subtly, only alluding to having seen my posts. I chose not to ask him about it first. Then, the first day he came back out here, he told me he saw. He told me he just wanted me to hold off on being stupid until after I get my financial aid for school. Told me I was retarded, gave me a kiss and changed the subject like nothing happened.

This is why I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I'm such a douche bag sometimes, but he loves me anyways. I'm no good for him.

Anyways, found out that I need to send the community college more shit before I can find out exactly how much financial aid I'll be getting. I just wanna start my classes already. I'm so stoked for Japanese 101. I think I'm going to take Sociology and Freshman Comp. too.

Oh, I think I feel another shit coming, better go.