Sunday, November 14, 2010


Best manga ever. High school student Kei Kurono meets up with childhood friend Kato Masaru one day by chance encounter. As the two are in the subway chatting, Kato notices a homeless man on the subway train tracks. Kato goes down on to the tracks to move the man off the tracks and persuades Kei to help. But soon after helping the man, they are hit by a subway train and killed... or maybe not. Immediately after being hit by the train, the two are suddenly in an apartment from which they can't leave, along with some other people who were also in some near death experience. In this apartment there is also a black sphere called Gantz. Kei and the others have to obey Gantz's rules if they want to live. They have to participate in missions in which the objective is to eliminate aliens.
Fucking read it if you haven't already. I'm addicted... I dream in Gantz now. I want it to be real. I'm reading feverishly.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The Sims 3

I can't get an install that works. I'm retarded, so I don't know how to mount anything with Daemon tools lite, or magiciso. Regardless, I don't think the torrent worked. The filetype is "bitlord incomplete download file." And I'm just uninspired lately, I can't write, I can't draw... If I sing, it just sounds hollow. So I'm reading Vampire Hunter D and detaching from the world, trying to find inspiration within myself, or within the pages of this book... I'm ultra tired lately, too. But I baked a cake, and I've been cooking besides, just keeping busy.
I want to start school now. I still have to bring my tax info to the school, and fill out some worksheet... Then I can choose the rest of my classes. Well, I could choose them now, but I can't remember my log in info, and the only place it's written down is in my phone... Which was fucking stupid, because my phone stopped working. Every time I turn it on, it just has a white screen. Uuuuugh.
I feel like just going to sleep until January.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Teach me how to Money

Eh, haven't been posting lately. I've just been suuuper tiiiired. Sleeping a lot, spending time with my boyfriend. Pretending to be a guy.
...Yeah. I'll talk more on that later, possibly. Right now, I'm anxious about getting new clothes. Since I moved, I have only found my favorite shit... And I need $30 per pair of new pants, which is really all I want for now. Planning on picking up some shirts for every show I go to this next years. Oh my fucking god, Luna Sea is going to be in Southern California this December. I'll fucking kill my own mother if I miss it. The chance to see Sugizo live? Fucking no. Not missing that. I'll sell my nubile little body if I have to. -_-
So... more mindless musings... Oh, this is a great shop for clothes, and they have some really unique stuff!
Literally the highest converse-style boots in the world. I have a pair. Yeah. They're comfy, they fit nicely, and they're fucking awesome.
So there's that... That's where I'm gonna get my pants too. Dem shiny leggings. One for every color. Yeah. Been saying that for about a year, but I have no banking card, so buying shit online is impossible. And since I'm not making really any money, I can't help that.
I wanna go out and get a job right now, but I wanna wait until after I start school, just to be sure I can handle school and work.
Any ideas on what place would hire a cute girl with blue and purple hair and facial piercings?

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Pure Stupidity (And Halloweenies)

Again, PLEASE CLICK THIS!!! I wanna at least stay in top 15, but if you help me get to first or second, I'll give out a prize!

I stayed up for 24 hours starting the day before yesterday, so I ended up being awake really early today. I'm planning on making a cake or some cupcakes today, and my boyfriend is coming back out!! :D
I'm so happy now. Gonna get to watch the premier of the Walking Dead tv show together. :3
People fucking piss me off though. If you're all keeping something a secret, and you make a reference to something sort of similar to that secret, people should be smart enough to not say something about the actual fucking secret, and think about what you're ACTUALLY SAYING, instead of automatically assuming you're referring to this secret. Some people don't deserve the truth. >.>

Also, I've been writing some fiction here and there in the last 48 hours... I wrote an intro for something that I find rather enticing. It seems rather amateur though... Posting anyway. :P

The musings of an alleged madman went unheard as he lectured the corridor of the ramshackle apartment. His expression was calm, his voice monotone. Smoke drifted in plumes out of the corner of his lips as he spoke, "He's a fucking phoney, he smiles to the public, shakes hands with the drug dealers and gang kingpins, all he cares about is lining his fucking pockets." This man knew the truth of politics, he had seen the same story played out in several countries. This particular politician, though, was voted into office after exposing his opponent of having dealt with organized crime in an unfit manner. This man, the governor, deserved to be taught a lesson. "The public fucking loves him. He needs to know that we aren't all fucking sheep." He directed his speech to the image of his target on the television,"I know your secret, fucking political whore. I know what you've done to get that fancy fucking mansion. I'll take the one thing that you must truly still feel human toward." As he watched, the camera panned to the governor's daughter, merely egging him on, "I'll make him come clean to the public in order to save his daughter..."

So, there you have it... If you have any suggestions or editing notes, let me know.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Hey, I need you to Click This

It's of the utmost importance. -_-

Also, I know I update pretty often, but I'm always this way when I first start something. I'm sooo tired. Went back to sleep finally after posting that dream-related bit. I'm bored, figured I'd update... Cause... Why not?
So, I'm trying to think about college, and our escape to Japan. If I get a two-year degree in something, will it impede upon my ability to continue for two years to get my Bachelor's? I still don't even know what I want to major in, what I wanna do for the rest of my life. But I'm so fucking excited for Jap 101... And I want to get that two-year degree so I can go teach in Japan... How fucking weeaboo of me, right? I could give a fuck, really. I want to do what I like.

So what do you guys recommend? Any two-year degrees you know of that are fun and at least kinda practical? I'm not going to do a degree in basket-weaving, so don't bother suggesting it.
Give me your opinions, dammit.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Venomous Nightmares

Yeah, today I was awoken after only 3 hours by bad dreams.

Usually gore in my dreams doesn't bother me, so I don't know why it scared me so much. Basically, this is my first dream. I was watching a man at the zoo, in some sort of animal's habitat. The zoo keepers kept trying to get him out... I think he was drunk. Anyways, he's resisting, running away... And then, as the audience watched in horror, the animal to whom the enclosure belonged emerged from its sandy home. It was apparently a colossal scorpion. It was about the size of an Irish Wolfhound, and its stinger was nearly a foot long. The man turned to see this monster approaching, and turned to run, only to discover another colossal scorpion emerging. He was surrounded, and stumbling in the dirt, tried to fight them off. Though finally, the first scorpion plunged its stinger into his torso, which went right through his doughy body. As the other scorpion attempted to claw at the man's flailing corpse, the first scorpion began to wave the man around on his stinger... He was alive, screaming, terrified, and no one could help, because he was already practically dead.

Then, the second dream, I went into my mother's room for some reason, to find it was covered in spider webs. I took refuge on top of a chair in the middle of the room. Though, as I stood there, I realized it wasn't safe either, and two brown recluse were advancing toward me. I knew instantly they were brown recluse, and that they were venomous. Though rarely aggressive as a species, these two were advancing quickly toward me, flexing their mandibles. Oddly enough, right next to one of them was a pamphlet about brown recluse spiders... Anyway, just before they got me, I woke up and freaked the fuck out.

First Post, Unoriginal Title

So, I just had two movements in the last hour. The first one was that smooth kind where you hardly need to wipe, and it was pretty big. I felt empty, like, OH I COULDN'T POSSIBLY MAKE ANOTHER. Then about 10 minutes later, I had the overwhelming dhiarini. So I ran back to the bathroom and let the hot acid foam out my ass. That time, I really needed to wipe.

That was my life last night, after my boyfriend left. Kinda sucked, but the fact that he was just here felt so good. Every time we have a stretch of days without seeing each other is hard. But when it's close to an entire month without seeing him, it's impossible. I start to forget how strongly I feel. But then the first day he comes back, it all comes rushing back to me.

In my stupidity, I had posted in a drink/fight/smoke/fuck thread, saying I only intended to smoke. I don't know why I did... Sheer boredom, lack of friends in the area, wanting to smoke. But he saw my posts, just my luck. I'm glad he did though. He mentioned seeing that thread rather subtly, only alluding to having seen my posts. I chose not to ask him about it first. Then, the first day he came back out here, he told me he saw. He told me he just wanted me to hold off on being stupid until after I get my financial aid for school. Told me I was retarded, gave me a kiss and changed the subject like nothing happened.

This is why I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I'm such a douche bag sometimes, but he loves me anyways. I'm no good for him.

Anyways, found out that I need to send the community college more shit before I can find out exactly how much financial aid I'll be getting. I just wanna start my classes already. I'm so stoked for Japanese 101. I think I'm going to take Sociology and Freshman Comp. too.

Oh, I think I feel another shit coming, better go.